Everyone needs good music in their life

Soooooo....

Not sure exactly who is reading these so-called blogs I write...well except for my Hayley and Kortnii :)....But I do really enjoy writing them!

As you all know a HUGE passion of mine is everything 'Twilight'. Another HUGE passion of mine is Music.

I've never met anyone who says they don't enjoy music, as (as far as I'm concerned) this person does not exist. If you EVER come across someone who states this unprecedented statement, please I beg of you - CHECK THEM FOR A PULSE! They most definitely aren't living.

Music has a way of integrating itself into every possible form of life. My everyday life. My every breath.

I honestly do not know what I would do if Music ceased to exist or if I became deaf. I have a respect for deaf people. I am always thankful for my hearing, as I know what I would miss out on if I didn't have it.

Music speaks to me every time I listen. Every genre of music has it's own love and soul in it. Although I'm pretty open to ANY genre, I mainly like to listen to unusual music. Music that is not mainstream. Music that bears itself to the listener 100%. The sound, the lyrics, the musician...they all have to be in sync with one another for that to happen. And when it does? It's pure bliss.

Music makes me happy. Even when I'm sad, music lifts me in a way that makes me feel special. Music can be anything you want it to be.

For every mood, I have a playlist. Happy, sad, angry, bored, excited, relaxed.

Every emotion has it's own playlist in life.

Music is its own art form. That's why I've attempted to emulate it in the best way I could by having a tattoo sleeve purely based on just that - Music.

One part of my sleeve reads,

Where Words Fail, Music Speaks

And it most definitely does.

Fatherhood = Responsibilty? Who Knew!

Heartfelt blog today....

I've decided to get a little more indepth with this blog today after watching a really bad episode of The Jeremy Kyle Show (which to anyone living outside the UK is kind of like Maury but with a smaller, angrier man as the host).

The topic of the show today was -

My Ex Moved To Far Away For Me To Be A Good Dad

Now, I've decided to blog about this particular event as it seems to have struck a cord with me. Mainly due to me growing up with my Parents divorced from when I was 6 and also the fact I'm a single parent, so I kind of understand stories like this and relate to them. However I would never go on a TV Show.

The guy on the show today was complaining as the mother of his children had moved away - 15 miles away to be exact (YES just 15 MILES!) - and he believes this is stopping him from being a good father as he has no contact with his children because of this so-called distance....I'm sorry but my own father lives 250 MILES away and has done since I was 15, yet he still makes sure I know he's there for me and has been there for all the important things a father should be there for. How is 15 miles an excuse for poor parenting?!? This man obviously does not understand what fatherhood entails and therefore should never have been blessed with 3 children in the first place. His estranged partner was not even stopping him from having a part in his children's life either...which is a slap in the face of every man who wants to take part in their childrens upbringing but are stopped access to their children for no reason other than their ex's like to think they can use their children as weapons.

This woman WANTS him to be a part of their children's life....

Yet this man cannot afford a bus ticket to see his children...yet he spends £6 a day on cigarettes! As the host, Jeremy Kyle, points out - WALK the damn 15 miles! If it means seeing your children you would do anything to see them...that is if you truely want to see them.

This brings me onto my next point.

I don't have the problem of arguing with a man over when he should come to see his daughter, as my child's father actually lives less than 15 miles from us. Even though he lives within the vicinity of his first born daughter, he CHOOSES not to see her. EVER. You're probably wondering what I'VE done to make him choose not to see her. That's it though, I didn't do anything. In fact, I did more than I should have. He publicly made me look like a whore after denying paternity (I was 17 when I got pregnant and had never been with anyone else other than him, which he knew. But due to him having a girlfriend it would have made it difficult for him if he admitted he was the father as basically it'd be him admitting he'd cheated.)

Don't worry, I'm not proud of myself. I know I shouldn't have involved myself with a man who was already in a relationship but I was 16 when we started the 'affair' and he was my first love, so when he told me he only wanted me, I stupidly believed him.

So even after he denied his daughter throughout my pregnancy (his excuse was that he was infertile) and till the paternity test proved I was right, (he still denies her believe it or not) I STILL decided to give him a chance to see his daughter.

He's NEVER took me up on that offer. Not once.

Oh, and just incase you're wondering he was a fully grown man when I had my daughter, he wasn't some adolescent teen who didn't understand what responsibilty is. I'm 23, he's now 30.

Oh and when I was about 4 months pregnant, he must have suddenly decided he was no longer infertile as he went and got his girlfriend pregnant. So my daughter has a half sister who is ONLY 5 months younger than she is, and who she is also not allowed access to. Which is totally unfair on the children. They did not choose their parents. None of this is their fault.

So to end my point...

There are men out there who aren't allowed to see their children for good reasons and there is also men who aren't allowed to see their children for no good reason at all. But it is the men who CHOOSE not to see their children who don't deserve them.

ANY male can be a father. But it takes a REAL MAN to be a Dad.

Ok, well I guess there's a first time for everything...

Hi I'm Stacey or Stace as most people abbreviate my name.

This is my VERY FIRST blog...EVER.

So to start off I thought I'd introduce a little bit of myself....as I post more blogs you'll get to know more of me I'm sure.

Right here goes....I don't know why but I think this maybe me coming across as nervous.

As you already know my name is Stacey. I'm 23 years old, and yes this is my FIRST BLOG. I think the reason for me choosing to start blogging now is I have very, very few people who...what's the saying?...'Get Me'...that's it. I have a daughter who I named Keira, who is 5 years old, who I'm hoping, one day, will 'Get Me'. As she's only 5 she pretty much enjoys anything I enjoy, and I hope that when she's older it'll stay that way...but she is also into what any 'normal' girl her age is into. High School Musical and Hannah Montana play a big part in her life, her dress sense, her music choices etc. You get it.

I however am slightly more eccentric ... at least, that's what I'm told.

I like reading A LOT. My favourite book series is The Twilight Saga....'Oh Nooo' I hear you say 'Not one of those twi-tweens'....As I already mentioned I'm 23 years old and a Mother. So, no, I'm NOT a 'Twi-Tween' or whatever you call those little teenage girls who think they need to be bitten by their boyfriends just so he can prove he likes her...

The reason I love Twilight has nothing to do with the underlying 'Vampire' story it has....It is the Love Story that binds me to it, nothing else. I read Twilight first as I'd heard it mentioned online in a lot of American press (over here in the UK, we hadn't really been struck with the phenomenon yet) and curiosity got the better of me and I went and bought a copy. I read it in a little over 2 days - I COULD NOT PUT IT DOWN. It totally enthralled me into it's own world and I'm now completely hooked. The frustrating thing was, that after I had read this amazing story, I had absolutely NO ONE to talk to about it. None of my friends knew anything about it. That is until a couple of months later when the movie was released. It was official, the UK had been hit with 'Twilight Fever' and all of a sudden everyone was in on something I'd already been a part of for about 5-6 months. I went to see the movie. I thought the book was more amazing. However, the film is my favourite film EVER. And I've seen HUGE amounts of films. This is the only film that I cannot remember how many times I've been to see it in the Cinema...Yes, that's right folks, I went to see it THAT many times at the Cinema, I CANNOT REMEMBER! I'm not ashamed....Lol.

It helps alot that the guy who plays Edward Cullen is everything my mind thought he would be. Rob Pattinson portrays Edward in my opinion perfectly. He does everything he should do as the character. Also Rob is an amazing guy with a personality that fame just won't change. This is what I'm thankful for. There would be nothing worse than some ordinary guy to play my favourite character and to do it for the fame and then become a total douche. Thank god for Rob is what I say. He stays grounded. He wants nothing more than to stay in and be with his friends and just be him. He has class that money can't buy. I love him for that.

So as you may have guessed, The Twilight Saga has took over most of my existence but other than being a mother I didn't really have much more in my life to begin with and I did just that - EXIST....nothing more. The books gave me something to do of an evening after my little girl had gone off to bed. I'm thankful of that. Yes I'm lonely but most people are, I'm just more upfront about it. But because of this fictional world Stephenie Meyer wrote about, I don't feel so lonely at night anymore. I just open a book and I'm there with them, living what they're living. Bella and Edward are my comfort.

Anyhoooooooo.....

After all that I'm pretty much spent when it comes to writing anymore of this....I will 'Blog' more. I enjoyed it. It was very therapeutic for me...Lol.